Some things.
little actions add up to big changes - just because I only have 20 minutes to perform a task or a moment to check in with a friend - the lifetime of that action compounds the more I do it. these are systems that work in our universe.
i would like to find attractive qualities in myself outside of appearances. as i get older, my value goes down according to the *gestures widely*. and newsflash, i have vain tendencies. what if i could be vain about my actions towards others or new skills? my body does not make me valuable is my affirmation as i move into 40.
with that said, i truly have no idea what i look like.
don’t ever tell a woman what to do with her body even if she offers a complaint about it. me included.
thinking about the idea of imposing myself (not in a draining way) on others because so many of us are afraid to ask for generosity.
i think i need to do more things that scare me but not in a spooky way.
i want something i can be proud of that cannot be bought. that is either going to be becoming a therapist or learning the drums.
someone called me “awkward and stupid” (they were drunk, but still) and yet maybe i should own up to the fact i am awkward and stupid sometimes.
when we are young - we want to be right. when we get older - we want possibilities.
ohio is nice this time of year.